Listen to yourself

In my life, something important happens every 10 years. Events that disturb my routine, shake me and force me to wake up. It is as if I hear someone shout: we’re here, hold on tight! And they leave me breathless.

Every 10 years I question what I do, the environment that surrounds me, my skills and relationships that I have. But I never question my principles, I consider them as a compass, a kind of code of ethics that is applicable to all circumstances.

Yes, the time has come. We are at the end of a cycle and the beginning of another. The last time was in March of 2006, I had just ended a relationship that had lasted 9 years with a person only who was only able to amplify my defects and make me feel like nothing. Yet for the love, I endured nine years. I was a victim, under the thumb of her judgments. Yes, blind love can be a big problem.

From time to time, I imagined how life would be without her, and I realized that I would have breathed freedom and that it would have been nice. When you vividly imagine a condition, whether you want to or not, you do everything to ensure that you achieve it. After leaving her, I started discovering the world and I stumbled on a course about personal growth by chance. Unlike what I had always heard, here I was told that I was worth something, I had endless skills and that I could do whatever I wanted. Since then I have done a lot. I braced myself and I faced great challenges with enthusiasm. They have been 10 years of continuous growth, during which I have had the opportunity to understand myself better, to discover my values ​​and to find out what I want to do when I’m older. I’ve been working like crazy to clear my head and it has been a painful process at times, but nonetheless it has been very uplifting.

I’ve founded businesses, I have contributed to the growth of so many people, and many people have contributed to my own. I have met the woman of my life with whom I got married and have had two wonderful children.

I’ve guided groups, I have developed my own personal power that has brought me emotional and economic abundance. I have become a leader, but at times I lose the position, and then find it again with renewed wisdom. And finally I have touched upon important positions in just as important companies.

But sooner or later deadlines arrive, and so March 2016 silently arrived. The ten-year cycle was about to close, I knew that an identity crisis would be coming up and a return to the origins. A series of coincidences have occurred in this perfect storm, the moment after years of investment and sacrifices I knew I would have to say “yes” to a new opportunity with all my might.
Instead I have racked my brains and had a thousand thoughts and a thousand doubts. The strange thing is that I began to wonder who I really was and if we really wanted to seize that opportunity. I had some days of hesitation, that hard-won clarity had suddenly become the tea leaves left in the cup. I did not understand anything, I was immobile and did not know what to do.

Meanwhile things were happening and the messages were coming, but I just ignored them like Bruce in the film. During the storm, he seeks answers from God, and He responds using all possible means, first with the sign “caution“, then the signal “stop“, then the ditch over which the car “jumps”, and the accident and the pager to which he will never answer. What other signs did he need to send him to convince him to stop, breathe and think?

And what other signs should the Universe have sent me, to convince me to change direction?
During one of the many nights I spent in a hotel between February and March, I thought back to some strange coincidences.

During these two months, I should have said yes, but instead I said no. But only at the end. I waited before my “back seized up” on the day before an important meeting, but I forced myself to go there. Strangely, I had to wait for airport to reopen as it was closed due to fog. At the important meeting, I then had to wait for my PC to carry out 34 updates that had to be installed exactly at time in which I should have started my presentation (please do not turn your computer off 🙁 ).

But what else should I have expected in order to understand that the Universe was telling me “sew the tear back up with your soul and your principles“?

Consciousness, the higher mind, the soul or God, as Bruce calls Him are always connected with our deepest desires and they constantly send signals to us telling us what the right choice to make is. But do we really listen?

Perhaps the signals are those butterflies in your stomach, that sudden illness or that strange coincidence. I wanted to take time to listen and in the end I said no! I should have said “yes”, but instead I said “no“.

I said no to others to say yes to myself,
I said no to security to say yes to freedom,
I said no to what was apparent to say yes to substance.

After having chosen to do so, I took a liberating breath; at that point in a just moment I felt clarity and energy coming back again. My new cycle has started, bring 10 more years of exponential growth. Who knows where it will take me, but for now it’s all so beautiful and exciting.

Listen to yourself, breathe freedom.

“… and in case I don’t see ya…

good afternoon, good evening and good night!”…

(The Truman Show)

Virginio